Jesus, Savior, Pilot Me

So I'm feeling very worn out by life, work, etc. I'm in need of a break. I'm looking forward to my time away that is coming soon. I don't enjoy things when I get into this mood. It makes it hard for me to do my work. It makes it hard for me to feel motivated. It is just hard.
Don't think that I don't enjoy my work and my life because they are both fabulous. Every so often I reach the I need a break point. And I've reached it.
What I wonder at times like this is what happens to people who have no choice? What if you've reached this point in your life but there is no break available? What if you have to keep working to eat? I don't know the answer to these random questions that jump into my head, so I'm plopping them out here on this space in the hopes that this will help.

Southland in the Springtime

So the weather here has been springy and unpredictable, but it is such a joy to till the garden...okay I admit that Rich tilled but I offered moral support. I love the smell of soil and the back backyard of our place. I'm excited about my new red wheelbarrow. My goal is to get home tonight in time to use it for the trimmings I'll take off the shrubs in the front yard.

And in the spirit of spring, here's lyrics to a great song by the Indigo Girls

Southland in the Springtime
Maybe we'll make Texas by the morning
Light the bayou with our tail lights in the night
800 miles to el paso from the state line
And we never have the money for the flight
I'm in the back seat sleepy from the travel
Played our hearts out all night long in New Orleans
I'm dirty from the diesel fumes, drinking coffee black
When the first breath of Texas comes in clean
And there's something 'bout the Southland in the springtime
Where the waters flow with confidence and reason
Though I miss her when I'm gone it won't ever be too long
Till I'm home again to spend my favorite season
When God made me born a yankee he was teasin'
There's no place like home and none more pleasin'
Than the Southland in the springtime
In Georgia nights are softer than a whisper
Beneath a quilt somebody's mother made by hand
With the farmland like a tapestry passed down through generations
And the peach trees stitched across the land
And there's something 'bout the Southland in the springtime
Where the waters flow with confidence and reason
Though I miss her when I'm gone it won't ever be too long
Till I'm home again to spend my favorite season
When God made me born a yankee he was teasin'
There's no place like home and none more pleasin'
Than the Southland in the springtime

All Will Be Well...

So today I was driving and listening to NPR (I spend much of my time doing this!) and heard a story about a man named Hal Taussig who started a business (called Untours) but did not want to become a millionaire. I found this story refreshing and frightening. I want to be able to be more like him. I want to not want things and security and money in the bank. I try not to want these things and yet...

Start at the very beginning...

I love a fresh sheet of paper where you can write anything you'd like. It is open for possibilities. I don't feel that same excitement when I look at a computer screen that is open to a new word document.
At this point, I don't know what the direction of my blog will be. There are many things I could write about, but for now I think I will write about what comes to mind and what is going on right now.
This might be a good place to list some goals or dreams. For now, I'll share 25 things about me from a silly thing I responded to on Facebook. I did find it a good exercise.

1-I met the love of my life on the internet (Go match.com!)
2-It took me much longer to realize he was the one than it took him to realize the same.
3-I first wore glasses in 2nd grade.
4-I first wore contacts in 8th grade.
5-I stopped wearing glasses or contacts 5 days before I turned 31! I love LASIK.
6-If I could travel anywhere in the world, it would be to the Mayan ruins of Tikal.
7-I love to travel and have always dreamed of being on The Amazing Race.
8-I applied to be on The Amazing Race with my friend, Kristi. We do not know why Phil has never called.
9-To help ease the heartache of not being selected for The Amazing Race and because he is such an amazing guy, my husband proposed though an elaborate game of TAR-Susannah Edition.
10-I got married in Yosemite National Park in a snowstorm in April.
11-I was honored to officiate at the weddings of two of my favorite people--my sister and my roommate!
12-Also, I was honored to be asked to participate in the funerals of my godparents.
13-It wasn't until I broke my leg that I realized that I love spinach.
14-I love to read.
15-I love to make lists!
16-I hate making the bed and only do it when company is coming over.
17-My husband and I joke about my surgical enhancements--the $40,000 leg and the amazing eyes!
18-I have the best ideas when I'm in the shower.
19-I love coming home and settling in on my purple couch in front of the fireplace to read a book, knit, or watch tv.
20-I do not enjoy cooking although I love to watch cooking shows.
21-I enjoying gardening even though my garden wasn't too fruitful last year.
22-I'm the money person in the family despite the fact that my husband is much better at math.
23-I get stressed before I travel because I have to pack and clean. I refuse to come home to a messy house.
24-I cannot believe it has been 10 years since I studied in Mexico!
25-I admit it. I'm a nerd. I wrote these down on a piece of paper before I typed them.