Over My Head

I haven't felt like myself lately.  It has been going on for too long and something has to be done about it.  Last night, my husband helped me work through part of the problem, but I'm still feeling over my head.  What is the cause?  The lack of real vacation for too long, supporting my husband while he works his butt off in school, the cold weather, wondering what to do with the rest of my life, some combination of all of the above and more?

I honestly don't know that I can pin it all down or even if I want to.  I just want to feel more like myself.  I want to be back on my game.  I want to feel like I'm not over my head.  That's what I want.  So what am I doing about it?  Working on getting work under control!  Working on getting up when the alarm goes off (which means going to bed at a decent hour).  Working on doing the things on my list (and not making lists that are unreasonable).  Working on myself.  Just gotta keep on working on it and eventually it will work itself out!

Never Grow Old

It isn't that I'm afraid of getting old...more like I wonder what it will be like.  Will I be like my grandparents?  There's a thought.  Will I be a cranky old lady?  Will I be the kind old aunt who bakes cookies and makes homemade Christmas presents? What will I be?

Right now, I'll just be me.  The age I am now.  I'll love my life as it is.  I'll love my friends and family.  I'll spend as much time as possible with people who make me smile and I'll do my best to make them smile too.  I think this might be the secret to never growing old!